I Love The Small Things!

I love the smal things in life. The ones that would mean anything to someone else. Today when I come home Benjamin's face lite up like a Christmas Tree. Just as everyday. LOL. But he didn't hug me like normally. So I came in sat on the couch and said "Benjamin?" So he looked at me. I said " You didn't give Momma a hug". He said "Oh" Then came running full speed and said "Sorwee" "Sorwee" I said its okay baby you don't have to be sorry. His little face went from smiling to laughing. It was the sweetest most precious thing I had seen all day long. I love my litte Benny Boo Boo Head. :)

He is growing up way to fast. I can't believe that in 2 months he will be 3. Um time is going by WAY to fast for me. I wish I had a pause button for him growing up. Its giving me baby fever lol. I love that he is growing up and is so smart but I miss the little 6lbs 13oz baby boy that he was. That was the times when I could keep him still lol. Now I have to chase him around for everything.

I wish that Antie (My great aunt who raised me) was here. She would have loved Benjamin to death. That would have been her heart. And I kno I wouldn't have been able to touch him at all. She would have defended him on any and everything. But she would have loved him to death. Antie had a passion for kids. She loved everything about kids. She wasn't able to have any kids of her own but she raised my mom and my uncle then turned around and raised my brother and me. So that was God's way of giving her 4 kids. Two boys and two girls. She loved us with all her heart and did what she thought was best.

I kno that as a teen I used to get mad at her alot but I kinda understand why she did what she did. April 20th marks the 7th year without her. I must agree it's been a hard 7 years. I think about Antie all the time. I even talk about her from time to time. I miss her dearly. She died just a month before I graduated high school. It was because of her that I finished school. If Antie wouldn't have pushed me to stay in school and to continue on getting my education I would have dropped out my 9th grade year. NO LIE. I never got to thank Antie for all she done. But I do it now all the time. She made me the person I am today.

I wish she could have just stayed a little longer here on earth but I kno God has his reasons for taking her. He needed a new angel. I kno that she looking down from heaven right now and smiling. Some of my decisions along the way might have made her a little annoyed but I finally got myself on track. I think she would be happy for me. I am going to college and making something of myself just like she always asked me to do. I think she would love who I have become.