Praise the lord..

So I have been told my whole life that god provides for his children and knows what is best. Since I have became a adult I believe that more and more. For the past year Ricky Benjamin and I have struggled with bills, jobs, cars, life and so much more. Without help from Uncle Rocky (Ricky's uncle) and Mrs. Trisha (Ricky's mom) we wouldn't have made it this far. I just don't know how to repay them for what they done for us. To me words just isn't enough to say thank you.

Mrs. Trisha has helped us so much and I just really want to thank her for what she has done. I love her so much already and Ricky and I aren't even married. You kno Antie (My great Aunt who raised me) always prayed and told me that she wanted me to find a man that I love and that's mom is going to like me. I guess god answered her prayers. Thanks! She always told me that the mother of the man I marry is always going to be a big part of my life. I guess I never realized how much til I found Ricky. Ricky and I have been together for 2 years and 3 months. We plan on getting married real soon and starting a family and life together.

Benjamin is happy with Ricky and that is all that matters. If my son is happy then I am happy. As for me I couldn't ask for a better person to spend the rest of my life with. Ricky does alot for me and I don't think that I tell him thank you enough for what he does. He is great with Benjamin. He stepped in and became a father to Benjamin when Jason wouldn't. As for Jason he isn't completely out of Benjamin's life. He pays child support so I am waiting for the day he wants to be a dad. I will tell him not to even bother because Benjamin doesn't need him. Okay so some might think that I am being mean and hateful when in reality I am not.

Jason was and is a alcoholic and druggie. When I was with him and I was pregnant he wouldn't feed me or nothing. He bought beer for him and his mom and drugs for him before bills was paid and before food was bought. I told him time after time that I needed to eat. But did he care NOPE. So the way I see it is he wasn't a father when Benjamin was little so he isn't going to be one later on. I am not a cruel person and anyone can tell you that but Jason just isn't worth Benjamin knowing.

My life is complete. I am happy and so is Benjamin.. We love our little family and we wouldn't trade it for the world. I am content! :)